*Here am I lord, I did it again*
The forbidden fruit, i tasted once more.
The allure of world, i casted my gaze upon.
The paths of destruction, I diverted to.
The first look started the rumble within my mind.
For the passing lady had the force of attraction to arouse the dead man in me.
The second look cemented the tumble into sin.
For I failed to remember and apply God's words at that moment.
*He that is in me is greater than he in the world*
The above was my favorite scripture.
So I followed my friends to the bar.
A whiff of the alcoholic drink did the enticement.
Within minutes, four bottles had materialised in front of me.
For I thought I could overcome the entanglement with sin even if I went to the bar.
I never knew,
That Psalms 1:1 also instructed me never to walk in the path of sinners.
For the company I keep would always determines my progress in defeating temptations.
For my refusal to severe ties with old friends who were not in the faith, left me stagnant in my faith.
For no man can serve two masters at the same time without experiencing destruction like Lots wife.
So I sit here,
My joy replaced with a deep seated sadness.
The temporary hunger that gnawed my innards has subsided.
And the sweet taste of the devils porridge has washed away.
Here I am at this point.
A critical life decision i have to make.
My lost joy and glory to forsake or retake
My former ways to awake or the total severance of its ties I am to undertake.
The handshake with sinful pleasures to continue or a plea to Jesus for the marriage feast to partake.
The pleasurable land of the dead to recede to heavens paths to proceed.
My bible, I picked
Like lead, it weighed.
My heart, guilt choked.
Nevertheless, I opened.
For I could not go back now.
A fallen champion will not be my tag.
A faltering Christian I will not be called.
A light to my generation I would not quench now.
Not when I still have the breadth of life in me.
Not when all creations are earnestly waiting to see my manifestation as a son of God.
Not until I am forgiven and freed totally from the bondage brought on by my habits.
*Hallelujah*, i cried,
Lord Jesus's voice, I heard.
The garment of shame, He shred.
The account of John I read.
Mary, a prostitute, Jesus saved.
Her accusers, He chased.
A stop to flirting with sin, He craved.
Everlasting life and joy, He promised
Direct into my eyes, He gazed.
The following words He spoke.
*Gird your lions my son. I have overcome the world*.
LOOK UNTO ME, THE AUTHOR AND FINISHER OF YOUR FAITH, BECAUSE OF JOY SET BEFORE ME, I ENDURED THE CROSS, DESPISED THE SHAME AND SITS AT THE RIGHT HAND OF GOD. (Hebrews 12;2)